The way I feel at the moment, I wish for a day I had no responsibilities, no one wanting my attention, and the only thing to worry about is whether or not I wear pants. The truth be told I still feel run down, having indeed spent a good deal of today for instance at Work diagnosing a server that didn’t want to come back from the dead without a fight. You could almost see the server turning green and then wanting to bite me…

But enough of Resident Evil references, I had enough of that third film the other week when it robbed my of time I will never get back and frankly the fact that I know another film for that pile of crap franchise is coming, the UN should get involved because surely to make people suffer through another 2 hours of that poo which isn’t even fit enough to come from a horse’s rear bumper, surely should be against the Geneva Convention…

And yet I know there are things to do. And I even went as far as being very very rude (and believe me that is being polite about what I did today) to Mum after she asked me yet again to take her to the airport and then one week later pick up both parents. My initial reaction was not designed to encourage further conversation. After all, I must confess the only thing that occurred to me was:

AGAIN?

In hind sight my reaction was over the top. I know only further retribution is to come from my “say what you feel like” policy. Problem is, at some point you do tend to break and then you actually say what you want without fear. And it always ends in tears. This all again stems to what I said on the “Testically Speaking” post, where if we actually act like who we really are, people don’t want to know you. I am guilty of that today and lord knows what awaits me next.

Surely things are not that bad? I just feel tired but I couldn’t get back to sleep today and that set me in a bad mood the rest of the day. I even missed a great evening with my good friend, Mr. Will Mason and Mr. Middleton due to work commitments.

But the 14th November should give another opportunity to join forces with the Will. It appears that I was the one to deal with this particular issue. Guess it’s the price you pay for playing with a high profile system for too long. But actually a strange thing happened while there.

I became subdued and my old calm self. It was very bizzare, while working on this problem today on a craped out server at work, My mood changed to being happy. Now you should be thinking as would I, what a strange yet fantastic individual? Work is the last thing which should make me change from the incredible hulk back to the good doctor, but alas it just happened. As time went on, and I got closer to the answer, I became happy. And that is the state I find myself now. Tired but happy.

And yet I shouldn’t have got this way. And well I have been an asshole of late to family. That much is certain. Perhaps there is something wrong with me that I’m letting get on top of me and that is affecting me more than I thought. Whatever it is, clearly I have to do something about it. Perhaps a good holiday is in order to change the scenery and give my brain a rest.

But hey I must confess I did want to write something else today but this seemed a better thing to do to clear the air and hopefully I can do something about the “naughty” I have committed today. Numpty.