Well after the two website posts, what possible greatness can the Lord of Leisure bestow upon the lesser mortals he sees all around him? Well for a start he could actually get off his high horse and meet the people of this fair internet trash-laden land of ours and wonder about something. Or he could just finish off the last crumpet from this morning’s breakfast while watching several shows from America that started again this week that he is a fan of, thus truly living up to his namesake of being leisurely.

Yes good people, this weekend began just like every other weekend before, I woke up late from playing games late into the night once again, well after the week of boring myself on learning for the exam, I decided to play online with a group of Norwegians, slandering each other, having great fun in the process and it felt like I was down the pub with these.

Except i wasn’t. I was being a geek on a computer on a Friday night talking with people elsewhere, and frankly this does beg the question this morning as once again I find myself in front of the big screen, am I addicted? I spend every day in front of this thing at some point, I work with them every day, I know a lot about them. And instead of going out recently, I have been spending time here typing away on various things, watching films, and playing games. I do wonder what has prompted this recent change.

After all, as you all know I pride myself on being out and about. Though even then, this blog had become stale with the same things happening for a time. But I started noticing things I took for granted and it made me feel a lot better, that others have it far worse in this bad world of ours. And at the beginning of September I was doing quite a lot.

I had been to Alton Towers, Birmingham several times, seen many many good people, and this week, I don’t know really, I have been keeping myself to myself, staying in a lot. Granted i shall tell the truth now, one reason is due to lack of funds. Seriously I am wondering if a second job will be the best answer for what I want to do. Then course I know it won’t be because then what will I have, all work and no play makes Paul more normal. And there is no way in hell I am becoming normal!

Another is, well i feel a bit like hiding. Silly I know, but in times of when I know something else is wrong, I tend to hide. Self-Defence mechanism I guess from many many years ago and I ended up doing the exact same thing. School was a bust so I hid then.

College was better, and work came in and brought me out more. But it was the social life that was full of woe, and of course it led to the point where I went to work and then stayed in all the time. Hiding though never solves anything of course, we have to face such things that trouble us. It’s what some people would say that would define us as adults or children.

Problem is, I always prided myself on being a big kid. Hell being how old I am now is a lot more fun than being 15 in school. I can do so much more than back then, and yet it stays with you. And it dictates a lot of your actions for quite some time later in your life.

I do have some things to take care of, plans afoot that sort of thing and also to see someone I have been avoiding simply because of my appearence. Hell, it’s why the gym started again with such vaa vaa voom. All because of vanity. Weird eh? Or in fact I could have been writing all this just as a sob story in order to get some sympathy!

Did it work? 🙂

But hey, some of you may be wondering what happened to the blog posts of olde times where the walls were rubbery and safe. When we all danced in our underpants and thought happy happy thoughts while picking various noses. Well that is still a big part of here.

I still like to write about what I have been doing, certain things have been getting on my lordly nerves, laughing at people, I love doing that part. But I was thinking, I am trying to expand the range of stuff here, and every once in a while I also write posts which allow people to see what kind of person I am. Well here’s a flash. I’m just as f**ked up as the rest of you. Just I tend to handle it differently. Via the gift of being a numpty. And sometimes that’s the best thing in the world to be.