Once there was a time
When my mind lay on higher things
And once there was a time
I could find pretty words to sing
But now, well now I find
It saves time to say what you mean
I know it seems so unrefined
But its time to let off some steam

Once there was a time
When a kind word could be enough
And once there was a time
I could blindfold myself with love
But not now, now I’m resigned
To the kind of life I had reserved
For other guys less smart than i
Y’know the kind who will always end up with the girls

And besides
Everybody knows that no means yes
Just like glasses come free on the n.h.s.
But the more I look through them the more I see
Im becoming more like alfie

Alfie, in case there are those of you are don’t know who he was a massive womaniser, who had to face consequences of his actions, question himself and in the end was rejected (for a younger man as it turned out!), Played by Both Micheal Caine and Jude Law, first film was surprisingly good. Anyway why it is relevant?

I was speaking to Ruth on friday afternoon, but kept getting interupted at work and by her washing. During said conversation of catching up, she asked why I am not back together with Sian (that seems to keep coming up in conversations), and am I just shagging around with lots of other girls? I never got the chance to explain as she was unavalible by phone again, so i have posted here, though the ironic thing is, she can’t read this blog as she says it’s blocked. LOL! Oh the things I could write and she’d never know!! BWAHAHAHA! (Sian, by all means explain to her! LMAO!)

And btw, I have only mentioned Ruth once or twice on this blog, far less than others and each time in a negative light, due to earlier incidents. But to address the blance here, I will write an ever so brief bio. She is an intellgent, beautiful, and frankly strange woman, who is currently studing Law up in Sheffield. Notoriously hard to get a hold of, why I don’t know, if you try and keep in contact with people you expect to get hold of them once in a while? She currently plays a “special guest star” role in my life, kind of like she adds to the show when she is there but you get used to the fact she isn’t around. But when all is said and done, she is “interesting” to say the least. And that statement is fully intended in a good way, I assure you all.

Right then, the truth of the matter is, that, yes in the beginning that is exactly what I was doing, albeit not shagging but seeing a few ladies at once (and tried once for Sara’s sister, but it appears that I frightened her simply because she wasn’t used to men approaching her, and she didn’t know how to react. Partly because her past which is a great shame) which of course was out of spite, but it quickly got narrowed down to one, Natalie, who is wonderful, insightful and bizarre at the same time and in the end, it has led to something I didn’t expect, and I am happy.

The hardest part of this is that she goes back to Lithuania at the end of the year, and being honest I have no idea what I would do then. In this life, all things are possible. And yet, not. Who knows what will happen?

Onto other things now, and well I haven’t kept a massive record in the blog for the past week or so, it’s just been a lack of time on my part really, coupled with the fact that I have been a bit lazy (no surprise there then) therefore the last couple of updates haven’t really served a purpose apart from just keeping the blog alive. I do wonder though who reads it if anyone does in fact. Ah, in any case, it serves as a diary for me and an outlet, so who cares?!?!

Over the past few weeks, a lot has happened on a couple of fronts. I have got a few outings sorted out, namely a trip to London again, and The Divine Comedy at the Carling academy in Liverfool (yes I am a glutten for punishment, but of course I have backup again :). I have been wondering how to spend what little holiday time I have left for this year, not much really but a week in November off being a lord of leisure again sounds very good atm. I just wonder, how much sleep do i have to catch up with after all this time?

Friday was a long day again. This time having finished work at around 7:30, I proceeded to Cheshire Oaks, there to meet with my brothers in arms, Dave and Chris. Together we battled the hordes of chavy people to reach the prize we so coveted: Cinema Tickets to see “the Departed”. Yes I know, had to build it up somehow! Dave also brought me joy in the form of a Executive Ballscratcher and 20 Questions toy!! YAHOO, I have something to scratch my bollocks with, though I suppose I didn’t need it before 😉

Saturday was a day catching up with some sleep, but not much, and also (yes I know, people will get sick of me mentioning her) saw Natalie, who tried her best to sort me with some fashion stuff on Sunday at Cheshire Oaks. Got some really nice footwear from Sketchers, some jeans and a shirt, but spent just under 100 quid in the process. Eep.

Aunty Bett has been under the weather with some type of flu that has been doing the rounds atm. Doctors gave her some pills and said she has to stay indoors for a few days. Tis a concern to say the least.

I have an assignment for Uni to do, designing a new network system with servers and desktop, including the wiring for the office in question. In theory I should pass easily, as strange as it seems to be, it is part of my job! Damn dood! Haven’t been given the Systems one yet, but it will be dull, pointless and rob me of hours of my life that I will never get back. Those filthy bastards!

While we are here then a few messages to anyone who cares:

Sian: Good to see all is well with you at present. And I hope there were enough taxi numbers!
Glyn: The time is coming when the prophecy will come true and your skills in battle will be required. I know I haven’t had the assignment yet, but I am wondering about CSS style sheets. May even try to tart this blog up even more with your assitance of course. Hope everyone is well up there mate. Will phone you soon.
Chris and Dave: Cheers for friday fellas, always good to see you both. Our chats are enlighting always to say the least. Though I keep taking the floor, of which I aplogise. And I must say Dave, if Tom and all them hate me because of one new years eve night where the idea is to have fun (Um, can’t really remember what happened aside from the photos), well what can I say? Whoops? Ah bugger knows (cares)
Simon: Hello sir, despite all I have said, Liverpool was better than the last time. Cheers again, and at some point I will join you in HL2: Deathmatch and whoop yo ass!
Laura: You broke my heart: oh woe is me!
Kerry: Nice joke, and hope you continue to get better as you have been.
Steve: We should get another night sorted: Granted It will be cheap as you are broke, and i will bring the booze. And porn.
Matt: Apparently we are gay lovers. Well blow me down (oops wrong choice of words..)
Mike: You’re too good to us mate. you should rest easy or your back will get worse. Will bring round some brandy to warm you up.
Lesley J: Yes you in London! I haven’t heard from you in a while, what’s happening? email me when you get chance.
Paul: Hope all gets better with you as well mate, tis a real shame. (and no that’s not a note to myself)

So there you have it. Tonight’s blog entry. Another long one (oo err) after a fair while. It has cleared the air, probably made people angry again as almost every blog entry seems to do and i haven’t even mentioned or said hello to the two people who i pissed off a while back. Hmm, may do that next time 🙂

Space adventurer away!!